c a r v e d | a n g e l

2.6.03

just a reminder that i am now at www.carvedangel.net

go there. now. @_@

| ranted by gish || 6/02/2003 01:27:00 PM || |

1.5.03

happy miso update:

The People's Republic of Happy Miso
"Miso Suki Desu!"

UN Category: Scandinavian Liberal Paradise
Civil Rights: Excessive Economy: Imploded Political Freedoms: Some

Location: Funfun Prefecture

The People's Republic of Happy Miso is a large, socially progressive nation, renowned for its strong anti-business politics. Its compassionate population of 36 million enjoy extensive civil rights and enjoy a level social equality free of the usual accompanying government corruption.

The government -- a sprawling, bureaucracy-choked, liberal, socially-minded morass -- is mainly concerned with Social Welfare, although Education and Religion & Spirituality are on the agenda. The average income tax rate is 46%, but much higher for the wealthy. The private sector is almost wholly made up of enterprising fourteen-year-old boys selling lemonade on the sidewalk, although the government is looking at stamping this out.

Euthanasia is legal, military funding has been stripped back, the tenet of free speech is held dear, and political parties are banned from advertising and receiving private donations. Crime is well under control. Happy Miso's national animal is the Neko, which frolics freely in the nation's many lush forests, and its currency is the Noodle.

| ranted by gish || 5/01/2003 11:14:00 AM || |

25.4.03

happy miso update:

The People's Republic of Happy Miso
"Miso Suki Desu!"

UN Category: Scandinavian Liberal Paradise
Civil Rights: World Benchmark Economy: Imploded Political Freedoms: Below Average

Location: Funfun Prefecture

The People's Republic of Happy Miso is a small, socially progressive nation, remarkable for its absence of drug laws. Its compassionate population of 18 million enjoy extensive civil rights and enjoy a level social equality free of the usual accompanying government corruption.

It is difficult to tell where the omnipresent, liberal, socially-minded government stops and the rest of society begins, but it concentrates mainly on Social Welfare, although Education and Religion & Spirituality are on the agenda. The average income tax rate is 49%, but much higher for the wealthy. The private sector is almost wholly made up of enterprising fourteen-year-old boys selling lemonade on the sidewalk, although the government is looking at stamping this out.

Citizens are enjoying a recent large cut in taxes, the nation is ravaged by daily union strikes, the Neko is a protected species, and meat-eating is frowned upon. Crime is well under control. Happy Miso's national animal is the Neko, which frolics freely in the nation's many lush forests, and its currency is the Noodle.

| ranted by gish || 4/25/2003 12:35:00 PM || |

24.4.03

i have moved! try going here. i have a domain! yay!

| ranted by gish || 4/24/2003 05:04:00 PM || |

21.4.03

happy miso update:

The People's Republic of Happy Miso
"Miso Suki Desu!"

UN Category: Scandinavian Liberal Paradise
Civil Rights: World Benchmark Economy: Imploded Political Freedoms: Below Average

Location: Funfun Prefecture

The People's Republic of Happy Miso is a small, environmentally stunning nation, notable for its strong anti-business politics. Its compassionate population of 12 million enjoy extensive civil rights and enjoy a level social equality free of the usual accompanying government corruption.

It is difficult to tell where the omnipresent, liberal, socially-minded government stops and the rest of society begins, but it is mainly concerned with Social Welfare, although Education and Religion & Spirituality are secondary priorities. The average income tax rate is 49%, but much higher for the wealthy. The private sector is almost wholly made up of enterprising fourteen-year-old boys selling lemonade on the sidewalk, although the government is looking at stamping this out.

Cars are banned, citizens are enjoying a recent large cut in taxes, the nation is ravaged by daily union strikes, and the Neko is a protected species. Crime is well under control. Happy Miso's national animal is the Neko, which frolics freely in the nation's many lush forests, and its currency is the Noodle.

| ranted by gish || 4/21/2003 10:22:00 PM || |

coming soon: www.carvedangel.net

WOO!

| ranted by gish || 4/21/2003 07:56:00 PM || |

20.4.03

arg i don't have time to do anything!!! rant!!!!!!!!!!!

| ranted by gish || 4/20/2003 12:42:00 PM || |

happy miso update

The People's Republic of Happy Miso
"Miso Suki Desu!"

UN Category: Scandinavian Liberal Paradise
Civil Rights: World Benchmark
Economy: Imploded
Political Freedoms: Below Average

Location: Funfun Prefecture

The People's Republic of Happy Miso is a small, environmentally stunning nation, remarkable for its devotion to social welfare. Its compassionate population of 10 million enjoy extensive civil rights and enjoy a level social equality free of the usual accompanying government corruption.

It is difficult to tell where the omnipresent, liberal, socially-minded government stops and the rest of society begins, but it concentrates mainly on Social Welfare, although Education and Religion & Spirituality are secondary priorities. The average income tax rate is 48%, but much higher for the wealthy. Private enterprise is illegal, but for those in the know there is a slick and highly efficient black market in Uranium Mining.

All recreational drugs are legal, cars are banned, citizens are enjoying a recent large cut in taxes, and the nation is ravaged by daily union strikes. Crime is well under control. Happy Miso's national animal is the Neko, which frolics freely in the nation's many lush forests, and its currency is the Noodle.

(changes in italics.)

| ranted by gish || 4/20/2003 12:11:00 PM || |

19.4.03

happy miso has The Nicest Citizens in Funfun Prefecture!

| ranted by gish || 4/19/2003 02:01:00 PM || |

happy miso update:

The People's Republic of Happy Miso
"Miso Suki Desu!"

UN Category: Scandinavian Liberal Paradise
Civil Rights: World Benchmark
Economy: Imploded
Political Freedoms: Below Average

Location: Funfun Prefecture

The People's Republic of Happy Miso is a small, safe nation, renowned for its absence of drug laws. Its compassionate population of 9 million enjoy extensive civil rights and enjoy a level social equality free of the usual accompanying government corruption.

It is difficult to tell where the omnipresent, liberal, socially-minded government stops and the rest of society begins, but it is mainly concerned with Social Welfare, although Education and Religion & Spirituality are secondary priorities. The average income tax rate is 48%, but much higher for the wealthy. Private enterprise is illegal, but for those in the know there is a slick and highly efficient black market in Uranium Mining.

Citizens select which government department gets their income tax dollars each year, all recreational drugs are legal, cars are banned, and citizens are enjoying a recent large cut in taxes. Crime is well under control. Happy Miso's national animal is the Neko, which frolics freely in the nation's many lush forests, and its currency is the Noodle.

(changes in italics.)

| ranted by gish || 4/19/2003 01:58:00 PM || |

18.4.03

happy miso update:

The People's Republic of Happy Miso
"Miso Suki Desu!"

UN Category: Scandinavian Liberal Paradise
Civil Rights: World Benchmark
Economy: Imploded
Political Freedoms: Below Average

Location: Funfun Prefecture

The People's Republic of Happy Miso is a small, socially progressive nation, renowned for its absence of drug laws. Its compassionate population of 8 million enjoy extensive civil rights and enjoy a level social equality free of the usual accompanying government corruption.

It is difficult to tell where the omnipresent, liberal, socially-minded government stops and the rest of society begins, but it concentrates mainly on Social Welfare, although Education and Religion & Spirituality are on the agenda. The average income tax rate is 54%, and even higher for the wealthy. Private enterprise is illegal, but for those in the know there is a slick and highly efficient black market in Uranium Mining.

Citizens select which government department gets their income tax dollars each year, all recreational drugs are legal, and cars are banned. Crime is well under control. Happy Miso's national animal is the Neko, which frolics freely in the nation's many lush forests, and its currency is the Noodle.

(changes in italics.)

| ranted by gish || 4/18/2003 04:41:00 PM || |

kali is coming over! huzzah! ^_^

| ranted by gish || 4/18/2003 04:33:00 PM || |

okay, i cut a lot of stuff from my page, so maybe it will be faster. i'll put the other stuff elsewhere when i have time.

| ranted by gish || 4/18/2003 04:28:00 PM || |

17.4.03

i have this sudden feeling of dread. hope everything's okay...

| ranted by gish || 4/17/2003 03:30:00 PM || |

unless he's a real jerk or crybaby, you're gonna be friends

| ranted by gish || 4/17/2003 01:38:00 PM || |

i just got a call from someone inquiring about my jaguar for sale. this had better be a one-time deal, or st. pete times is going to get a nasty phone call from me. i can't afford to get random calls on my cell, as i used a lot of my minutes this month.

anyway, i feel really bad for ku-chan today. he apparently has to undo all the work he's done so far at his new job. which is a lot. because the translators don't want to update the materials or something. poor bear. and now he's all upset because he has to take tomorrow off, which will cost him over $100 coz he's a contract employee. i don't know how to cheer him, either.

also, since this post is already completely random, i have another issue to address. or, rather, not address. i would like my friends to know that, when arguments in our circle occur, i make like switzerland. in other words, i am neutral. this doesn't mean i don't like you, it doesn't mean i haven't formed an opinion. i just keep the opinion to myself, because it usually isn't my business anyway. and i'm very non-confrontational. i stood up for a friend once by, well, slugging someone. it was scary and stupid, so my opinions and temper will be kept in check one way or another. gah, i don't feel like talking about this anymore. just know that i don't hate anyone, and i seldom hate people. i love everyone. smootchies to all.

| ranted by gish || 4/17/2003 01:34:00 PM || |

happy miso update:

The People's Republic of Happy Miso
"Miso Suki Desu!"

UN Category: Scandinavian Liberal Paradise
Civil Rights: World Benchmark
Economy: Imploded
Political Freedoms: Below Average

Location: Funfun Prefecture

The People's Republic of Happy Miso is a small, environmentally stunning nation, notable for its strong anti-business politics. Its compassionate population of 7 million enjoy extensive civil rights and enjoy a level social equality free of the usual accompanying government corruption.

It is difficult to tell where the omnipresent, liberal, socially-minded government stops and the rest of society begins, but it is mainly concerned with Social Welfare, although Education and Religion & Spirituality are secondary priorities. The average income tax rate is 49%, but much higher for the wealthy. Private enterprise is illegal, but for those in the know there is a slick and highly efficient black market in Uranium Mining.

Citizens select which government department gets their income tax dollars each year and all recreational drugs are legal. Crime is well under control. Happy Miso's national animal is the Neko, which frolics freely in the nation's many lush forests, and its currency is the Noodle.

(changes in italics.)

| ranted by gish || 4/17/2003 12:16:00 PM || |

16.4.03

I don't want to be the one
Who battles always choose
Cuz inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright

excerpt from breaking the habit by linkin park

| ranted by gish || 4/16/2003 07:12:00 PM || |

i put up a little faq. just so you know.

| ranted by gish || 4/16/2003 01:33:00 PM || |

(current song: stand -- REM)

this girl is like me at 15, i think. it's weird. (except my parents are still married, and i have a sister rather than a brother, but you get the idea.)

| ranted by gish || 4/16/2003 12:42:00 PM || |

happy miso update:

The People's Republic of Happy Miso
"Miso Suki Desu!"

UN Category: Scandinavian Liberal Paradise
Civil Rights: Superb
Economy: Imploded
Political Freedoms: Below Average

Location: Funfun Prefecture
The People's Republic of Happy Miso is a tiny, socially progressive nation, remarkable for its strong anti-business politics. Its compassionate population of 6 million enjoy extensive civil rights and enjoy a level social equality free of the usual accompanying government corruption.

It is difficult to tell where the omnipresent, socially-minded government stops and the rest of society begins, but it concentrates mainly on Social Welfare, although Education and Religion & Spirituality are secondary priorities. The average income tax rate is 49%, but much higher for the wealthy. Private enterprise is illegal, but for those in the know there is a slick and highly efficient black market in Uranium Mining.

Citizens select which government department gets their income tax dollars each year. Crime is totally unknown. Happy Miso's national animal is the neko, which frolics freely in the nation's many lush forests, and its currency is the noodle.

(changes in italics.)

| ranted by gish || 4/16/2003 12:36:00 PM || |

okay, i've done something which may be construed as really stupid. but i needed to do it.

see, i'm starting yet another diet today. and, hopefully, this one will work. and i'm doing a seperate journal for it @ fitday.com. which i've made public. this means you can see how much i currently weigh. this is very embarrassing for me, but i think it will keep me on track. i'm hoping that it will keep me from cheating, because i know people will look at it, expecting some kind of weight loss. otherwise, i will picture everyone at their computer screens, shaking their heads, and muttering "cow." chris and i used the same technique when we quit smoking. we told everyone we were quitting, so they'd give us hell if we wussed out. we even told the very nice guys at the nearby convenience store not to, under any circumstances, sell us cigs. and, true to their word, they didn't. and they would always ask how it was going and all. it turned out to be really helpful. (i do not have the guts to ask them not to sell me snacks, though. how embarrassing would that be?) besides, i wouldn't have gained the thirty pounds in the first place if i hadn't quit smoking!

so, anyway, i'm starting fresh today. i'm not going to let past failures bother me.

besides, i think i look damn good. you can think "cow" all you want. but the minute i hear it cross your lips, you'll see how quick this "cow'" can be. ^_~

| ranted by gish || 4/16/2003 12:00:00 PM || |

15.4.03

How Compatible are You with me?

go on, take it. you know you want to... ^_~

btw, it'd be really cool if you shared your results with me. put it in the comments thing.

| ranted by gish || 4/15/2003 05:09:00 PM || |

Conscious self	Overall self

Take Free Enneagram Test

| ranted by gish || 4/15/2003 04:29:00 PM || |

happy miso update:

The People's Republic of Happy Miso
"Miso Suki Desu!"

UN Category: Scandinavian Liberal Paradise
Civil Rights: Superb
Economy: Struggling
Political Freedoms: Below Average

Location: Funfun Prefecture

The People's Republic of Happy Miso is a tiny, environmentally stunning nation, notable for its absence of drug laws. Its compassionate population of 5 million enjoy extensive civil rights and enjoy a level social equality free of the usual accompanying government corruption.

It is difficult to tell where the omnipresent, socially-minded government stops and the rest of society begins, but it concentrates mainly on Social Welfare, although Religion & Spirituality and Healthcare are on the agenda. The average income tax rate is 49%, but much higher for the wealthy. Private enterprise is illegal, but for those in the know there is a slick and highly efficient black market in Uranium Mining.

Crime is totally unknown. Happy Miso's national animal is the neko, which frolics freely in the nation's many lush forests, and its currency is the noodle.

| ranted by gish || 4/15/2003 01:20:00 PM || |

14.4.03

(current song: burning skies -- tones on tail)

to lunch, or not to lunch? that is the question.
whether tis nobler for me to sit on my fat bum and keep reading
or trundle down to the convenience store and eat something
to eat, to read - no more
...???

okay, i'm going to get some lunch.

that was just plain stupid.

*lol*

| ranted by gish || 4/14/2003 11:51:00 AM || |

(current song: filth pig -- ministry)

life is gooooooooood... ^_^ i don't have a damn thing to do today. well, except for reading yet another diet book in my quest for cultural acceptance. (actually, i think i look damn good. i'm only obsessing about dieting, because i know that diabetes is just around the corner.)

so the rest of the day will be spent writing or making postcards or something. and it will be fun, and i will be happy. i'm really just glad to be with chris again. i do miss my family a lot. (yes, already.) but, for whatever reason, i still get that "i love him so much i'm going to explode" thing going. it's so high school. ^_~ it'll be eight years in may, and i still have all the same feelings.

*okay, i'm getting really cheesy here, but it's my journal, so why not?*

i still look at him and get this thrill because he's mine. he picked me. and i get to love him forever if i want to. *^_^* and he's still hot. it's all to do with spring.

i go crazy every spring. it's like all-out debauchery time. i want to do everything. especially fall in love. i want to be at one with everything. to feel full of everything, i guess. to eat til i'm bursting and drink til i'm drunk. it's also about rebirth for me in so many ways. it's like i relive my history over and over. histories i may not even consciously recall. and i writhe out of my old skin and become what i love again. i leave this dull, used, worthless bit of me behind, and i'm alive again. i am day-glo. i am grasping and gasping and living. i have to be in new places and try new things. i am my own brand of beautiful in the spring. i wear my new, wild self on the outside, rather than bottling it up inside. my hair is all the colors of easter egg dye. i am delirium rather than death. and instead of fearing it, i embrace it.

i'm back.

i love springtime!

| ranted by gish || 4/14/2003 11:01:00 AM || |

13.4.03

grrrrrrr, i just noticed my imood thing is, er, discolored. and my counter is off. i guess i should just leave stuff alone. fooking hell.

| ranted by gish || 4/13/2003 07:24:00 PM || |

gerbils. *heehee*

| ranted by gish || 4/13/2003 07:09:00 PM || |

(current song: muck -- die warzau)

slow day. chris is playing video games and i'm fighting off sleep and headaches. ^_^ and julie went on her first date with the guy she met at a play last night. she met conrad yesterday, and we wanted her to hook up with him, but alas...

anyway, i seem to have completed version 2 of carved angel. i'm liking it. (btw, if you find a more appropriate ok counter, let me know. it was the best i saw for the current theme.) i already have tons of ideas for future layouts, so this page will continue to change weekly. it's neat to look at my archives and see all the pretty backgrounds. for me, anyway.

yes, well. i am boooring today. sorry. off to check other blogs.

| ranted by gish || 4/13/2003 07:02:00 PM || |

i can't believe i went a day without posting... this must mean i kind of have a life. ^_^

| ranted by gish || 4/13/2003 10:37:00 AM || |

11.4.03

insane link of the day

| ranted by gish || 4/11/2003 08:54:00 PM || |

(current song: blame -- korn)

ju-chan has decided to blog as well, so cold angel press will soon be at work on her new page. it's my hope that i'll eventually have a domain, and will be able to host a couple of people like her. (i can hear chris laughing from here.) but a friend told me i should design webpages, and there are already a couple of people who want me to do it. for free, of course. ^_~ it's not really getting a domain that's a problem, though. it's only $8.50. but it's $5 a month for the cheapest host. that doesn't sound like a lot, but i don't have a job, and the general consensus is that my interest in the web and design is a waste of time. i don't seem to have any patrons. ^_^; (no, i don't really expect anyone to like my crap enough to pay for it.)

anyhoo, i will be back in town tomorrow. i'm hoping to leave early enough to get to clearwater before chris leaves for the tourney. since poor julie is missing her induction thingy. ;_; we'll see. at any rate, i'm looking forward to seeing my father-in-law tomorrow. and, of course, chris and neko. ^_^

also, if you have not seen the kikkoman thing in my media section, for f*ck's sake, go look!

| ranted by gish || 4/11/2003 08:08:00 PM || |

10.4.03

i made these dolls today:

they are kind of what i'd look like if i was cute. i actually wear similar outfits to #s 2 and 4. so, since i don't have a decent pic to put up, these will have to do for now.

| ranted by gish || 4/10/2003 09:53:00 PM || |

(current song: never let me down again -- depeche mode)

i keep thinking about going to the ministry concert in may, and i can't wait. ^_^ hopefully, we can get some people to come along. ryan might. but i don't think any of our other friends like ministry. even though it's one of the best bands to exist ever. may is also anniversary time. i love spring!

| ranted by gish || 4/10/2003 05:14:00 PM || |

(current song: halloween remix -- ministry)

*survey grabbed from ragingbutterfly*

1. What kind of mattress do you have on your bed?
full

2. Which side of the bed do you sleep on?
right

3. Do you have to have covers (blankets and/or sheets) at all costs, no matter the weather?
yes

4. Sleep nekkid or no?
nope (what if i die in my sleep??)

5. What's under your bed?
i don't want to know

6. What's on top of your refrigerator?
pasta, chips, tins, junk

7. Name five things in your refrigerator?
moldy food in tupperware, skim milk, low fat cheese, sour mix, bread

8. Name five things in your freezer?
ice, popsicles, piece of my wedding cake (that's it, i think)

9. Name five things under your kitchen sink?
cleaning gloves, tool box, detergent, cleaning products, junk

10. Name five things around your computer?
at home, i forget, but here: binders, stapler, bedford handbook, lamp, printer

11. What did you have for dinner last night?
turkey sausage and tater tots

12. What's your favorite meal of the day?
dinner

13. Do you eat breakfast? What did you have today?
nope

14. What beverages do you usually have in a typical day?
water, juice, green tea, and occasionally soda

15. White bread or wheat bread?
wheat

16. What's your favorite kind (potato/tortilla/corn) and flavor of chip?
doritos

17. Wash dishes by hand or in the dishwasher? What detergent do you use?
dishwasher, cascade complete lemon

18. How often do you eat out compared to eating in?
depends

19. What is the weirdest thing you've ever eaten?
chewing tobacco (i was little and i did eat it)

20. What toothpaste do you use?
colgate something

21. Do you use mouthwash?
nope

22. What gum/breath mints/breath spray do you use?
none

23. What TV shows do you always try to watch?
cartoons and britcoms

24. What's your favorite TV show and why?
any cartoon or britcom, coz they're mind candy

25. What was your favorite TV show as a child?
transformers

26. You've just won a complete collection of movies starring
one actor - what actor would you pick?
toshiro mifune

27. What was the last movie you saw in a theater?
two towers

28. What was the last video or DVD that you bought?
robotech invid invasion collection

29. What movie could you watch over and over again and not get sick of?
pulp fiction

30. What section of a bookstore would I find you in?
languages/travel guides or world religion

31. What's the best gift you've ever received?
my bear

32. What's the worst?
now that's just mean. besides, i like getting gifts so much, i don't care what it is. ^_^

33. As far as holiday shopping goes, do you buy throughout the year or do it last-minute?
the week before christmas

34. What's your favorite time of day?
dusk

35. What's your least favorite time of day?
morning

36. Are you a morning person or a night owl?
night owl

37. If you had an entire worry- and obligation-free day, what would you do with it?
er, that's really every day for me...

38. Tell us something about you that would surprise us?
i might actually enjoy playing with a bratz doll

39. If you (and your S.O.) were cool with it, what five celebrities (at the most) would it be 'ok' for you to have a fling with?
dolph lundgren, alain jourgensen, sean o'haire, robert smith, and elvira (that might belong in the above question)

40. What outrageous thing do you wish you had the nerve to do?
pierce my lip

41. What was your biggest accomplishment this year?
getting married

42. What was your biggest disappointment this year?
my job at the comic store

43. What was your first job?
grandy's

44. What was your first car?
1988 chrysler lebaron (kind of)

45. How old were you when you had your first kiss?
12

46. How old were you the first time you had sex?
15

47. What's the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?
chris' prom night was the most romantic thing in my life, ever

48. What's the most romantic thing you've ever done for someone else?
heh heh um...

49. What was your first concert?
ministry

50. What cologne or perfume do you wear?
ck one

51. What cologne or perfume do you like best on the opposite sex?
don't know...

52. What one smell can you not stomach?
vomit

53. What smell do you like that others might consider weird?
rainy dirt smell

54. What do you have your browser start page set to?
www.carvedangel.blogspot.com

56. Favorite search engine?
google

57. When did you first get online?
1994

58. Ever broken any bones?
no

59. Ever had stitches?
no

60. What are the stories behind some of your [physical] scars?
i am unscarred

61. Hey, baby, what's your sign?
leo

62. What would be your dream vacation?
to see the world

63. Where is "home" for you? Is it where you are living now, or somewhere else(ie: Mom & Dad's house, particular state/city)?
anywhere chris is (neko, too. ^_~)

64. What makes it home for you? People? Things?
chris and neko

65. Where is the furthest you've been from home, miles-wise?
somewhere in wyoming, i think

66. What's your favorite animal?
kitty

67. What pets have you had in your lifetime?
cats, fish, hamsters, frogs, lizards, turtles

68. Is there any specific pet that you've wanted?
ferret or snake

69. What are you allergic to?
penecillin, pollen, dust, mold

70. What's your favorite thing to do outside?
look for cover

71. If you could eat dinner with and "get to know" one famous person (living or dead), who would you choose?
william burroughs

72. Has the death of a famous person ever had an effect on you? Who was it and how did you feel?
owen hart. i was devestated.

73. What are the first things that you do in the morning to start your day?
kiss bear goodbye, play with neko, goof around online

74. What are the last things that you do at night before going to bed?
feed fish, take meds, turn on alarm clock and white noise thingy

75. What daily routine have you recently added to your day?
walking with chris after work

76. What routine do you wish you could get rid of?
worrying

77. What's the one thing that makes you feel like something is missing if you don't do it some point within your day?
talk to chris

78. Do you live in a house, an apartment or a condo?
condo

79. Does anyone else live with you?
chris and neko

80. How many times have you moved in your life?
10ish (soon to be 11)

82. What was the first CD you ever purchased?
don't remember

83. What is your favorite kind of writing pen?
purple pilot pen

84. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
lemon or any kind of cheesecake

85. What are your plans for this weekend?
go home to my bear, and have dinner with his (our) dad

| ranted by gish || 4/10/2003 04:25:00 PM || |

insane link of the day:

| ranted by gish || 4/10/2003 01:01:00 PM || |

(current song: eyes-radio-lies -- orgy)

well, i managed to sleep til noon again... i think it's because there is no (natural) light in my bedroom. maybe this would explain my angst when i lived here. nah. ^_~ but, on the plus side, i won't have to wait long for julie to get here. she'll be at school til 10 tonight, but she comes home for lunch.

i feel so badly about last night. mum got really mad at us (julie spilled code red on the floor, and we missed some), but instead of staying around and sticking it out, julie and i went to perkins for about an hour. when i got back, after 12, of course mum and dad were in bed. i don't get to see them much, and the whole thing just kind of sucked. and i missed the first 10 minutes of trigun. but i didn't like the idea of julie driving around by herself that late... also, some bitch at perkins really pissed me off. i've been using chris' credit card for a few months now, with no problem. i did get my id checked once, but that's okay, coz i have his last name. well, they wouldn't take my fucking credit card for a cheap appetizer. even after i showed them my id. yes, i stole a fucking credit card, that has the same last name as mine on it (miracles!), so i can buy goddamn chicken strips with it. i mean, really, folks. if that thing was stollen, i would've been at best buy. i would not have been using it at perkins. i think the bitch was just fucking with me coz of my hair. coz then she took julie's card without a second glance. um, she could've stolen it from a woman couldn't she? but she doesn't look like a punk, so people never fuck with her. (except horny black bus guys, but that's a story for another time. and i'm not racist or anything, either, btw. they are all black guys.)

that's all i want to talk about for now.

| ranted by gish || 4/10/2003 12:24:00 PM || |

9.4.03

(current song: hit the floor -- linkin park)

a certain rude bear has posted on my blog and guestmap. this bear is my husband, so i do not take (too much) offense.

i was watching the news, and the iraquis are celebrating everywhere. i am truly happy for those who managed to survive our invasion. though i still feel there was a way to do this with less casualties and posturing, i am happy that those poor people are finally free. let's hope it's not "new boss, same as the old boss." remember, it was the us that set the taliban up as the new leaders of afghanistan... despite popular belief of many americans, we are not god. afghanistan was only one example of mistakes we've made on others' behalf. i hope we don't continue to make these same mistakes in the middle east and elsewhere.

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 07:32:00 PM || |

(current song: the drowning man -- the cure)

um, stupid blogger erased my last post. for no reason. and i don't really feel like re-writing it. nyah.

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 05:43:00 PM || |

not much to report yet. got up at 9, so i hope i can function today. i'm going to the mall to get the security tag removed from my shirt, then we're going to tempforce, then to the dentist. i'm glad i got batteries for my gameboy yesterday, coz i'm going to need them today. pokemon! ^_^

that's all for now.

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 10:19:00 AM || |

my main personality type:

As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.

INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.

INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.

But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.

Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.

INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.

In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.

The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 03:09:00 AM || |

okay, i just have to say that "nobody's listening" by linkin park absolutely rules. hahn-san suki desu!!

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 01:46:00 AM || |

(current song: 4-d cha (cha-cha-delic) -- senor coconut y su conjunto)

i can't seem to sleep. probably coz i got up so late. i added a couple of bands to my radio station. today, i was talking to julie about when chris and i started dating. which made me think of the stuff we used to listen to. and, i also added our song, "a kiss to build a dream on" by ol' satchmo. one of these days, i may write our story here... it was rather interesting, i think. as far as that stuff goes.

but i notice dumbbear won't comment on much of anything, or sign my guestmap. he's not a very good blog guest.

i've been reading foundation, and it's pretty good. i'll prolly be up all night reading it. i just wanted to hear some old songs for no apparent reason. specifically urge overkill. i rated one album in particular, so what does it play? something i never heard of. :P stupid launchcast. i pick tons of songs, and it keeps playing the same ones. still, it's better than most radio.

well, i'm obviously going to just keep bitching aimlessly if i stay on here.

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 01:41:00 AM || |

8.4.03

i went to the mall again with julie, which was fun.

anyway, i got a cute skirt, and a hello kitty shirt. cho kawaii!! but the dummy at the store didn't remove the activation thingy, so now i can't wear the shirt til i take it back. sigh.

i'm still kind of busy, but i'll write more when i have time.

| ranted by gish || 4/08/2003 07:02:00 PM || |

(current song: heroin a.d. -- die warzau)

i just woke up. it's 12:30, and i literally just rolled out of bed. why on earth did i sleep so long??? there's no clock in my bedroom, and each time i woke up, i felt like i was still tired, so i just went back to sleep. now, of course, i feel gross. julie should be home any time now, though. we're going out again today.

well, that's all my muddled brain can come up with at the moment...

| ranted by gish || 4/08/2003 12:31:00 PM || |

7.4.03

well, i just tried waxing for the first time. first (and only) damn strip gets about two hairs, and leaves a lovely trail of red and purple spots. oh yeah, that's real attractive... i'm never doing that again. ;_; hurt like hell, too.

anyway, i'm off to help julie with her script, even though i feel like crap and my voice is shot. i've been so sick today... anyway, enough whining, i'm off.

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 05:02:00 PM || |

ugh, i feel really sick. my stomach hasn't been this upset in some time. :P but i'll try to be pleasant nonetheless. just hope i feel better soon coz i'm supposed to be going out...

julie and i just finished watching jonah, the veggie tales movie. it was cute, but jonah was a jerk.

i just realized my blog is very biblical today, which is weird considering how little i usually have to do with it. legos and veggie tales are cool, though. ^_^

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 11:37:00 AM || |

(current song: do ya think i'm sexy? -- revolting cocks)

i can't believe how incredibly bored i am. as soon as this song is over i'm gonna go find something to do... i wuv this band.

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 09:19:00 AM || |

great, blogger's going nuts again. may have to use pitas again for a while...

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 08:54:00 AM || |

the bible, in lego form

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 08:01:00 AM || |

Your clan is a dysfunctional one. That is because you are a Malkavian. Something is poisonous about this clan's blood that drives all those embraced to madness. However, in this madness, you tend to have great insight. Unfortunately, people just take it as senseless ramblings. In every family there is an insane one. You're it.

What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To?

sweeeet. ^_^ i liked this vampire quiz, because it wasn't completely obvious that if you picked an answer, that was the clan you'd be. and i ended up a malkie. huzzah! if you like vampire, take this quiz.

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 07:27:00 AM || |

6.4.03

well, the evening is over quickly. julie fell asleep about 10 minutes into the movie. we bought a bunch of food that i won't be able to eat now, since i'm supposed to be starting my stupid diet tomorrow... and i'm having a bad "attack" which probably won't be over for another hour or so. whee. i'm not tired enough to sleep, which means i get to lie in bed in agony for a while, trying to concentrate on "foundation" which is a hard enough book as it is. but i definitely don't want to spend any more time on the computer...

| ranted by gish || 4/06/2003 11:07:00 PM || |

bear, maybe tomorrow we can do yahoo chat or something? love you!!

anyway, i'm having a good day. i went shopping with dad, and julie and i are watching movies tonight. yayyyy! that's all for now.

oh yeah, check out the hot angel on my quiz journal. lol

| ranted by gish || 4/06/2003 09:03:00 PM || |

yet another new background up. ^_^

| ranted by gish || 4/06/2003 12:01:00 PM || |

mum figured out my headache problem. i have cluster headaches. this is a relief, but it also sucks, because if they keep up, i may have to take medication for them. and i already am on too many things... but at least it's not a tumor. ^_^; still, when i have an "attack" it really hurts.

i don't know what i'm doing yet today. probably going out with mum. julie and i have been talking like mad, and it's fun. i watched K-PAX last night, and it was good. i love kevin spacey but my mum and sister seem to hate him. oh well, it wasn't a waste of two hours anyway.

and, of course, i still miss my bear. ;_;

| ranted by gish || 4/06/2003 11:57:00 AM || |

5.4.03

my stupid ilayers look dumb, too. and i don't know how to fix them... grrrr.

| ranted by gish || 4/05/2003 07:31:00 PM || |

it's still ugly but i don't care.

| ranted by gish || 4/05/2003 06:53:00 PM || |

the scrollbar is green. it didn't show up that way at home, but i am horrified at how ugly it truly is. 0_0

| ranted by gish || 4/05/2003 06:52:00 PM || |

well, i'm in gainesville now. and i miss chris already. i think the worst part of being away from him is that i worry constantly, since i'm not there to take care of him. not that he needs it, of course. i just am under the impression that he does. ^_~ so, chris, if you're reading this, i miss you already. have fun at the party. (most parties seem to go on when i'm out of town.) ;_;

anyhoo, mum is making me try the atkins diet again. this is probably for the best. since i gained back the five pounds i lost on it... so i will try to tough it out, and hope that splenda isn't as toxic as everyone claims.

mum's asleep, and dad and julie are at church, so i'm on my own for a while. i need something to take my mind of chris, but britcoms aren't on for about another hour, i think. ah well.

love you, chris!!

| ranted by gish || 4/05/2003 06:48:00 PM || |

4.4.03

"Whenever I resolved to lose weight/be better informed/exercise more/be more sociable/keep my house cleaner/get a better job... my mood would take a nosedive."

i'm quoting that from a blog i like to read. it really struck a chord with me. it explains a lot. thanks scheherezhade. ^_^

basically, i really need to get over myself. i'll work on it.

| ranted by gish || 4/04/2003 02:41:00 PM || |

unbelievable.

i love my husband.

| ranted by gish || 4/04/2003 01:23:00 PM || |

3.4.03

what did he do to you?

stop this war now

(photo from http://www.aljazeera.net)

| ranted by gish || 4/03/2003 04:45:00 PM || |

grrr i'm pissed. my archives used to have my old backgrounds on them, and now they're all the current background. there doesn't seem to be a way to fix this.

[edit] okay, i seemed to have fixed the background problem, but now my archives aren't showing up at all anymore. :P also, sometimes the background on my current page is the same as my first archive. this is really annoying.

[edit] i say, very tentatively, that i have resolved the problem.

| ranted by gish || 4/03/2003 03:56:00 PM || |

my hair is now vampire red. ^_^ i looooove manic panic! hooray senor coconut!

| ranted by gish || 4/03/2003 01:28:00 PM || |

i added a link to my radio station. though it occasionally plays crap, i weeded it out pretty well, so it mostly plays songs i like. ^^ give it a listen, you might hear something you've never heard before...

| ranted by gish || 4/03/2003 11:05:00 AM || |

2.4.03

another silly media link up.

| ranted by gish || 4/02/2003 09:45:00 PM || |

dad's home! yay!

| ranted by gish || 4/02/2003 08:51:00 PM || |

i added the ability to comment. so say something! ^^

| ranted by gish || 4/02/2003 07:58:00 PM || |

god, i'm so annoyed. i've been reading the demon book for days now, and had a really good idea for a character. but, for some reason, you don't really choose what you look like in demon form. it's fucking annoying because you have this character in mind, and they need a certain lore for them to work properly. and what they look like depends on the lore. so instead of having a really cool character i came up with, i have to be what the stupid book says. and the way the demon looks doesn't fit my character at all. it's so stupid. i called chris to ask if i could keep my character as-is, but make up her appearance myself. and for once he decided to be a fricking rules-lawyer, and said i have to look like the thing in the book. :P it's not like i want her to be gorgeous or anything. in fact, i wanted her to be kind of plain in some ways, but instead she has to be this giant, iron thing with a booming voice. she's supposed to be kind of quiet, and, in some ways, introspective. like an inventor. but she has to look like iron fucking giant. with a deep, loud voice. the two ideas don't mesh at all. what's really stupid is that the malefactors are supposed to be like inventors, and they're almost timid in some ways. but they have to look like this?? how stupid is that? if you're going to go through a book describing something a certain way, then at least have the character look similar to their personality. malefactors don't just forge weapons, they do other things, too. and the path lore is plain useless. i don't even feel like working on the character now. what a fucking waste of time.

| ranted by gish || 4/02/2003 04:01:00 PM || |

chris hates my hair. i'll have to dye it red again asap. which, i think, will be in two weeks. in the meantime, i'll be in gainesville, so he won't have to see me. i'd do it sooner, but my hair could fall out or something.

i woke up at 6 this morning with this awful feeling, and i couldn't get back to sleep. my dad comes home today, and i wish he'd hurry up and get back so i can quit worrying about him. i don't think that's why i couldn't sleep, though. i hope not. but i feel like something bad might happen.

| ranted by gish || 4/02/2003 12:00:00 PM || |

1.4.03

my hair looks pretty good. it's certainly different... ^^ i'll put up a pic soon.

| ranted by gish || 4/01/2003 04:42:00 PM || |

i'm bleaching my hair blonde, which is my natural color. hopefully, it will come out okay. i haven't been blonde since i was 14. i'm bleaching it so manic panic will show up better. but i'll prolly leave it blonde while i'm visiting my parents, coz mum likes me that way. i intend to dye my hair purple for l5r tourneys, too. ^^ maybe i'll take a piccy and put it up if it looks okay...

won't this be a great april fool for chris? ^~

| ranted by gish || 4/01/2003 02:52:00 PM || |

31.3.03

yay!!!! i am such a goldberg mark, but i don't care. he's back! huzzah!

| ranted by gish || 3/31/2003 11:13:00 PM || |

This is so me.

Your Q Score is: 17
The Q score ideally should be as small as possible, indicating maximum agreement among elements. However, even a tiny Q score may not mean optimal functioning, since all four elements may in fact be relatively undeveloped.

Your Primary Mythical Creature
Water Types
The main strength of the Water types is feeling. The second element indicates the most probable focus for this emotional expression.

Mermaid
Water with Air

Astrologically associated with Pisces and the Twelfth House

Mermaid types are warm and caring in a passive, receptive way. They are given to daydreaming and to contemplation, a combination that can make them seem curiously absent and fey. They are among the most unworldly of all the types. Despite this they have a strong ability for clear, rational thinking that can be startling. They seem to have a deep, intuitive understanding of the oneness of the universe. They have a desire to help the world at large and are acutely aware of and sensitive to suffering. This is partly because they do not recognize the customary boundaries between people, other living things, time, space, this world and the Otherworld. They are frequently psychic. They can be brilliantly original and highly creative. They are usually regarded by others as benign eccentrics or as plain weird.

Your Shadow Creature
Fire Types
All the Fire types have problems relating to anger and aggression. The weakest element indicates the main focus of these problems.

Phoenix
Fire and Earth

This shadow is prone to a sense of stagnation due to lack of motivation and laziness. Nothing durable is ever produced. Practical activities may never be embarked upon. There is an underlying sense of futility and hopelessness. Disillusionment results from their lack of confidence that they can change anything for the better, and in any case they do not have the will. At the same time there is an underlying grandiosity and even megalomania reflected in their dreams and aspirations. They need to feel special. Instead, they may simply overindulge or neglect themselves physically. The biggest obstacle of weak Earth is to overcome self-centeredness and greed; the biggest obstacle of weak Fire is to overcome anger and aggression.

take the quiz.

| ranted by gish || 3/31/2003 08:42:00 PM || |

i centered my background, but i can't tell if i like it better this way or not...

| ranted by gish || 3/31/2003 08:01:00 PM || |

i'm finally actually making links to everything... content galore!

| ranted by gish || 3/31/2003 07:29:00 PM || |

spent the day reading demon: the fallen. and it is really interesting. as far as religious stuff goes, this makes more sense to me than most of the crap i hear on a regular basis. not that i'm one of those freaks that takes white wolf, literally, as gospel. (i mean, they actually warn you in the beginning of their books not to be a freak about their products. i.e. nothing in this book is real.) but it's interesting nonetheless. i look forward to finishing the book sometime this year, so i can actually start playing.

it's been so nice out, i wish i could've gone out more, than just on a walk this evening. if it's like this tomorrow, i will have to at least go out and have a coffee or something. i can't believe i spent practically the whole day in bed... i really just couldn't bring myself to get up and do anything today. so i read. i love reading, but this was too much inactivity, even for me... i was just trying to avoid a headache i guess. it wasn't terrible today, but i still feel like i hit my head. :P

well, i'm off to read some more. ^^

| ranted by gish || 3/31/2003 06:22:00 PM || |

i know i've been boring lately. :P this stupid headache is just killing me, and being on the computer seems to aggrivate it somewhat. chris says i should at least post creative things, but i haven't felt all that creative lately. i kinda sorta started working on a comic, but it's pretty stupid, and even if it weren't, i don't have a scanner or anything to put it up here.

hopefully, i'll still be going to gainesville this weekend. i don't know now if dad will feel like getting me, and chris refuses to drive both ways. it would be nice to have a change of scenery, though. i feel like i might break out of my rut and accomplish something if i could just get out once in a while. this stupid house just brings me down, and it feels like a prison sometimes. it was just clean on friday, and now it's back to being a hellhole again. it doesn't matter how much i do, it never looks any better. i'm sick of cleaning this place, and even more sick of looking at it all the time. i feel so unmotivated. :P

| ranted by gish || 3/31/2003 03:00:00 PM || |

30.3.03

my head won't stop hurting, and i'm soooo bored. what a bloody awful sunday... :P

| ranted by gish || 3/30/2003 02:16:00 PM || |

new background up, more lain goodness. ^^

| ranted by gish || 3/30/2003 12:52:00 PM || |

i started studying french last night. compared to japanese, it's really easy. of course, i'm studying out of a book, so i probably can't speak it worth crap, but the vocabulary isn't too bad. someday, when i'm done with school, if i live near a university, i will take language classes until i'm fluent. first, i'll take german again, then japanese, then french, then...? i don't know. i want to be learning a new language at all times. ^^ i don't know why i like language so much. it's just fun to me.

...........

| ranted by gish || 3/30/2003 12:45:00 PM || |

interesting link of the day:

http://www.angelfire.com/weird/junkyard/fortean.html

| ranted by gish || 3/30/2003 12:24:00 PM || |

28.3.03

i can't wake up today. it's like i'm in a fog lately or something... anyway, yesterday was really fun. ^^ i went with kali to get my comic books, then we went to the oriental store. i got hello kitty chopsticks with a case, and an engrish pin. i'm not as into buttons as i used to be, but i couldn't pass it up. it now resides on the strap of my fuzzy leopard print purse. it says, "feeling produces high fashion." it has this flower thingy on it too, maybe i'll post a piccy later.

so that was fun. and chris finally got his dynasty warriors game. i went to bed early, but chris came in at 1, being generally pissy about his game. but he likes it anyway.

even though i went to bed early and woke up at 10, i feel exhausted. since it's friday, chris will want me to stay up. so should i sleep until i'm not tired? i'm not sure i won't be tired even if i sleep. gahhh... i wish i could wake up today.

| ranted by gish || 3/28/2003 01:31:00 PM || |

27.3.03

i got more px stuff today! ^^ so i decided i'm going to go ahead and keep doing px, and just not ship anything. chris said that's okay. it's so fun getting mail! i'm going to have to work on stuff to send back, but i probably won't be able to do most of it til i get to gainesville...

| ranted by gish || 3/27/2003 01:32:00 PM || |

gah, i just got back from errands, and i'm beat. it's too hot out. :P kali probably won't be here for a while anyway, so i have a little time to rest before i finish cleaning... walking around in 85 degree weather didn't help my headache. sometimes i wish i could drive...

anyway, i'm going to keep this short, because being on the computer isn't great for my headache either.

| ranted by gish || 3/27/2003 11:25:00 AM || |

26.3.03

i put my cookbook up under links. to read it, though, you have to add me as an aol buddy. that's just the way the site works... anyhoo, i haven't put any of my own yet, just a couple from cooking light. but i will prolly add more of my own soon. ^^

| ranted by gish || 3/26/2003 04:49:00 PM || |

someone signed my guestmap! huzzah! ^^

| ranted by gish || 3/26/2003 01:07:00 PM || |

this one stupid spot on my head keeps hurting. right now it hurts pretty bad. i wish i could just get a brain scan, so i could quit worrying about this. it's too expensive to do. everyone keeps telling me it's just tension, but i've had a tension headache before, and it was not like this. for a while now, it's been this almost burning sensation on the top, right side of my head. then, it burns and hurts, and starts feeling more like a real headache. everyone says to wait til i have a blackout or seizure, then have something done about it. i am thinking that, if i did have something wrong, by the time i start having seizures it will probably be too late to do anything about the problem. i just wish i could talk to dr. mansour about it. thanks to my stupid insurance situation, i won't be able to see him til some time in june. maybe i'll have a blackout or something before then, and i will be able to see him. :P i'm getting so sick of this headache, i wish it would just go away...

| ranted by gish || 3/26/2003 12:34:00 PM || |

25.3.03

eye... twitching... again... maybe i'm magnesium deficient? anyway, kali called today. ^^ we're doing something on thursday. it'll be nice to see her again.

i did miss ania today. hopefully her new job is going well. actually, i should probably email her about that.

| ranted by gish || 3/25/2003 06:54:00 PM || |

my sinuses hurt really bad (usually only one side at a time, thankfully). but now i'm thinking, only a year ago, i'd never had real sinus pain before in my life. and now i have it every day. this is true for a lot of things in my life. there are so many things i never used to have to worry about, that trouble me almost contantly now. and it makes me think i really need to appreciate things the way they are now, before they get any worse. it also makes me really sorry i didn't appreciate my life more before it got so crappy.

i hope someone reads this, and realizes it's true. (i seldom think of anything useful, but this may be one of those times - so listen up!)

no matter how bad things are for you right now, they could almost certainly get worse at any time. but don't worry about that, because when that really bad thing happens to you, you'll eventually be used to it. if my dad can get used to missing half a leg, (and, believe me, he has) then i can get used to almost anything. and appreciate everything else in the meantime.

| ranted by gish || 3/25/2003 03:37:00 PM || |

I AM loopy chucklehead. (about right, ne? ^~)

WHO ARE YOU?

Children laugh 146 times a day, adults laugh only 4 times a day.....no wonder we're so unhappy... What's your new name???
Sometimes when you have a stressful day or week, you need some silliness to break up the day. Here is your dose...
Follow the instructions to find your new name. The following is an excerpt from a children's book, "Captain Underpants and the Perilous
Plot of Professor Poopypants" by Dave Pilkey. The evil Professor forces everyone to assume new names...

Use the third letter of your first name to determine your new first
name:

a = poopsie
b = lumpy
c = buttercup
d = gidget
e = crusty
f = greasy
g = fluffy
h = cheeseball
i = chim-chim
j = stinky
k = flunky
l = boobie
m = pinky
n = zippy
o = goober
p = doofus
q = slimy
r = loopy
s = snotty
t = tulefel
u = dorkey
v = squeezit
w = oprah
x = skipper
y = dinky
z = zsa-zsa
Use the second letter of your last name to determine the first half
of your new last name:

a = apple
b = toilet
c = giggle
d = burger
e = girdle
f = barf
g = lizard
h = waffle
i = cootie
j = monkey
k = potty
l = liver
m = banana
n = rhino
o = bubble
p = hamster
q = toad
r = gizzard
s = pizza
t = gerbil
u = chicken
v = pickle
w = chuckle
x = tofu
y = gorilla
z = stinker

Use the fourth letter of your last name to determine the second half
of your new last name:

a = head
b = mouth
c = face
d = nose
e = tush
f = breath
g = pants
h = shorts
i = lips
j = honker
k = butt
l = brain
m = tushie
n = chunks
o = hiney
p = biscuits
q = toes
r = buns
s = fanny
t = sniffer
u = sprinkles
v = kisser
w = squirt
x = humperdinck
y = brains
z = juice

For example, George W. Bush's new name is Goober Chickenshorts.

Now when you SEND THIS ON ... use your new name as the subject. And remember that children laugh an average of 146 times a day; adults
laugh an average of 4 times a day. Put more laughter in your life.

(grabbed from birdman)

| ranted by gish || 3/25/2003 03:22:00 PM || |

link of the day:

http://www.hampton2600.com/sorrycow

i may never eat beef again. ;_;

| ranted by gish || 3/25/2003 11:39:00 AM || |

24.3.03

i wish my head would quit hurting, i feel all disoriented. :P

| ranted by gish || 3/24/2003 08:58:00 PM || |

there was a nice surprise waiting for me in the mail today, from px-ers of course. ^^ i guess they were sent out before the announcement that i'm not doing px anymore... i still really appreciate all the cool mail i received.

| ranted by gish || 3/24/2003 04:12:00 PM || |

i took a few quizzes today, and my okcounter is missing again. :P and i can't seem to wake up... bored... cleaning the house also.

| ranted by gish || 3/24/2003 02:04:00 PM || |

i have blogroller now, which is helpful, coz i have a lot of blogs to list now. ^^

| ranted by gish || 3/24/2003 11:29:00 AM || |

23.3.03

the roast just caught on fire. hm.

| ranted by gish || 3/23/2003 08:10:00 PM || |

ow, my tooth hurts... ;_;

| ranted by gish || 3/23/2003 07:57:00 PM || |

survey grabbed from laura:

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | disease
02 | death
03 | spiders
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THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 | julie
02 | dave barry
03 | chris
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THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | bears
02 | kangaroos
03 | pokemon
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THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | people who think they're more important than everyone else (i.e. the "me first" mentality)
02 | driving
03 | fear
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THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | people
02 | math
03 | the president (no, "dubya" does NOT belong in the "people" category)
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THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | coffee cup
02 | keroppi notebook
03 | chinese stationery box
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THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | this survey
02 | getting hungry
03 | wishing the house were clean
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THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | have a career i like
02 | have something published
03 | not be a cow
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THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | kick your ass at L5R
02 | sleep
03 | play animal crossing
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THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | boring
02 | lazy
03 | doormat
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THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | touch my nose with my tongue
02 | keep the house clean
03 | stop neko from chewing on stuff
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THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | tapping the vein
02 | rosewater elizabeth
03 | your mom (no, really)
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THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER:
01 | my husband playing video games
02 | pop
03 | your friends (again, really)
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THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | bloody hell
02 | shit
03 | sorry
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THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | mexican
02 | chinese
03 | sweets
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THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | japanese
02 | french
03 | everything else
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THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | water :P
02 | liquor
03 | mountain dew
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THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | transformers
02 | gi joe
03 | garfield and friends
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RANDOM QUESTIONS..
1. Spell your name backwards? knabwe haras
2. How did you get your live journal (or blog) name? my blog name is a name i've had forever
3. Are you homosexual? a little from column a, a little from column b
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DESCRIBE YOUR..
[ x ] Wallet - badtz maru (and i have a matching id wallet, also ^^)
[ x ] Hairbrush - black
[ x ] Toothbrush - black and white
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - none, except when i go out, then my wedding ring and my dragon kanji watch
[ x ] Pillow cover - earthtones
[ x ] Blanket - patchy earthtone thingys
[ x ] Coffee cup - black
[ x ] Sunglasses - metal with holes in; coooooooool ^^
[ x ] Underwear - no thanks. j/k :D black (of course)
[ x ] Favorite shirt - trot with campy
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - ck one
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - none
[ x ] Tattoos - none
[ x ] Piercings - two in each ear, prolly healed over; navel, definitely healed over
[ x ] What you are wearing now - t shirt, undies
[ x ] In my mouth - teeth
[ x ] In my head - tumor?
[ x ] Wishing - i didn't have a tumor; or at least wishing i didn't keep thinking one was there...
[ x ] After this - dinner
[ x ] Fetishes - heh
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone,who and for what reason? - get away with it? god's eyes are everywhere 0_0
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - everybody
[ x ] Is next to you - junk
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - seven samurai, pulp fiction, lola rennt, wasabi
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - visiting my parents
[ x ] The last thing you ate - strawberry cheesecake frozen yogurt
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - death
[ x ] Do you like candles - yes
[ x ] Do you like incense - opium, please
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - er... whose?
[ x ] Do you believe in love - i guess
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - maybe
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - sure
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - dunno
[ x ] Do you believe in God - sometimes
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - i want it to be left the hell alone and burnt
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - dragon
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - almost three days straight
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - very well, thanks
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - one of the yen ones. i forget which
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies - what isn't my favorite candy??
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - me. period.
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - everything
[ x ] Who is someone that you really wish was still around - my grandma marilyn

| ranted by gish || 3/23/2003 07:42:00 PM || |

version 1.2 up today...

| ranted by gish || 3/23/2003 01:38:00 PM || |

chris keeps watching war footage, but i can't anymore. it pisses me off.

| ranted by gish || 3/23/2003 01:21:00 PM || |

well, i have officially given up on the atkins diet. i just couldn't find anything to eat! also, i was really missing the serotonin that only carbs can provide. (no wonder i was in such a shitty mood.) anyway, this doesn't mean i'm a total quitter. i'm just going back on my old diet, and will experiment with calorie count, til i get it right. when it comes down to it, and (almost) all-meat diet isn't a great idea for someone who just doesn't like meat very much. at least, meat without decent sauce. and, like with everything else, sauce has sugar in some form. I'm happy to be going back on a diet where all my sugars are natural, like fructose. Carbs aren't so hard on my digestive disorder, either. so, for all intents and purposes, i am starting over. again. ^^; and at least now i can have a margarita once in a while. i simply can't live without a little alcohol now and then! (i mean, alcohol mixed with something. plain vodka? no midori? no way.) no more grease, no more artifical sweeteners, and sweet carbs once again...

| ranted by gish || 3/23/2003 01:17:00 PM || |

22.3.03

i feel so hopeless today... i just had a cheeseburger without the bun and without ketchup for lunch, and not only did it not taste very good, i'm still hungry. i thought i'd have a pickle, too, but apparently the pickles we have inlude fucking corn syrup as an ingredient. there is sugar in everything. i thought the point of this diet was that you could eat about anything and not go hungry. well, that's not true. i'm starving most of the time, and am already getting tired of eating eggs for every meal. most of what i eat is too damn greasy and upsets my stomach. what am i supposed to do, eat plain chicken for every meal? yum. and i also feel sluggish and awful, which i chalked up to carb/sugar withdrawal. but it's been almost a week and i still don't feel any better. on top of it, the only approved sweetener is sucralose/splenda, which i've heard is really bad for you. people complain of having awful side effects from it. i don't know how long i can stay on this diet, even if i am losing a lot of weight.

| ranted by gish || 3/22/2003 01:50:00 PM || |

21.3.03

i found a way around using the illegal page. oh yeah, i'm a hacker. woooooooo. lol

sorry if i creep my visitors out, but i find tracking interesting-looking ip addys to be like some kind of fun puzzle when i'm really bored. especially like now.

i wish i was in hawaii, too, but not stationed there.

| ranted by gish || 3/21/2003 11:01:00 PM || |

it's a weird night. i talked on the phone with my dad, who i really miss a lot. i hate that he's out of town during all this war crap. really, he's always kind of out of town, to me, because we live in different parts of the same state. i guess i just mean i wish he was home. yeah, i'm lucky he's not in the military. but i still miss him. i hope i can still visit my family in april.

chris is at a friend's house, and i'm alone. i think i smell something burning, but it's in my mind. lonliness is not something good for someone like me. it would be nice to see some friends, but i guess they mostly have their own things to do. true, i could've gone to ryan's with chris, but i just wasn't feeling up to it. to be honest, i'm not hating being alone that much. i kind of like my solitude, but i've been alone all week. and it's the paranoia i hate.

someone visited this page and logged a military ip addy. what really sucks is that, apparently, it's illegal to trace a military ip address! i wanted to do it, but had to go to a special page. then i was informed the page is for government use only, and they'd track me and arrest me or something if i used it. creep-o.

| ranted by gish || 3/21/2003 10:44:00 PM || |

i got two pieces of px mail today! and one was a total surprise! i got another one from kat, which was really sweet coz it's a keroppi notebook. kawaii! (i have to thank m and karii for that as well. ^~) And my other mail was a cool postcard from *angie*, and it was such a nice surprise. kat didn't mention whether she'd received my postcard, so i hope it got there okay. i may have forgotten to sign it, so it's totally my fault.

it's so fun getting mail! ^^ i'm also in a good mood coz i'm losing weight really fast on this diet. about a pound a day!! on my old diet, i was lucky if i lost 2 lbs a week. at this rate, i'll be back to my old self in maybe three months. i guess the weight loss slows as you add carbs, so it might be more like six months. but that's a helluva lot better than the 9-12 months i was looking at before. despite the weight gain, i still don't feel too bad about having quit smoking. i guess.

that's all for now...

| ranted by gish || 3/21/2003 05:00:00 PM || |

i posted a few links on my other blog, and thought i'd re-post them here:

if you live in florida and have a driver's license (or permit) go here. your information may be available for anyone to see, unless you block it!!

http://titaniumcounter.com/temp/emergency

http://www.moveon.org/declaration

| ranted by gish || 3/21/2003 04:24:00 PM || |

ugh, i don't feel well. this had better not be from the water problem... my water wasn't discolored or anything, and i only drank a little, so i really wouldn't think there'd be a problem. but now i can't tell if i feel sick because i think i'm supposed to, or if i really am sick. i can't afford to go to the doctor right now, so i really hope it's nothing. i am so pissed at the city. they really should have done more to alert people to the problem.

| ranted by gish || 3/21/2003 12:42:00 PM || |

gah, i forgot about the animal crossing sports festival this morning!! i missed the 9 am event, and almost missed the 11 am event. i thought i'd get to participate, but i didn't. oh well. i got a medal anyway, but i don't know if you only get one for the day or what. guess i'll see at 1.

yeah, i could cheat and reset my nintendo's time, but i don't do stuff like that. nyah. ^^

| ranted by gish || 3/21/2003 11:12:00 AM || |

i'm annoyed with clearwater. apparently a water main burst yesterday, and we have to boil our water before we drink it. but did anyone bother to tell us?? nooooo..... chris and i are lucky not to be sick, apparently. we were watching a local channel for hours last night and heard nothing about this. if i did get sick, i'd sue. -_- what a bunch of crap. i'm going to have some coffee now. (decaf, of course. ;_;)

| ranted by gish || 3/21/2003 10:30:00 AM || |

20.3.03

please look at the green party website. it explains my opinion pretty accurately.

| ranted by gish || 3/20/2003 06:21:00 PM || |

i almost forgot! i got a wedding invitation from jason and robyn today. i can't wait! ^^ i wish i could get married again. if i ever renew my vows, i might have a real wedding next time.

| ranted by gish || 3/20/2003 05:53:00 PM || |

MY UNICORN BOX CAME!!!! it's sooooo cool looking!

yes, i'm a little manic today.

| ranted by gish || 3/20/2003 04:54:00 PM || |

anyone know what the hell happened to okcounter.com?? i want my counter back!!

| ranted by gish || 3/20/2003 04:08:00 PM || |

yay, my blog is finally working again! i have a backup blog for next time, just in case. the addy is on the right.

| ranted by gish || 3/20/2003 03:41:00 PM || |