c a r v e d | a n g e l

11.4.03

| ranted by gish || 4/11/2003 08:54:00 PM || |

(current song: blame -- korn)

ju-chan has decided to blog as well, so cold angel press will soon be at work on her new page. it's my hope that i'll eventually have a domain, and will be able to host a couple of people like her. (i can hear chris laughing from here.) but a friend told me i should design webpages, and there are already a couple of people who want me to do it. for free, of course. ^_~ it's not really getting a domain that's a problem, though. it's only $8.50. but it's $5 a month for the cheapest host. that doesn't sound like a lot, but i don't have a job, and the general consensus is that my interest in the web and design is a waste of time. i don't seem to have any patrons. ^_^; (no, i don't really expect anyone to like my crap enough to pay for it.)

anyhoo, i will be back in town tomorrow. i'm hoping to leave early enough to get to clearwater before chris leaves for the tourney. since poor julie is missing her induction thingy. ;_; we'll see. at any rate, i'm looking forward to seeing my father-in-law tomorrow. and, of course, chris and neko. ^_^

also, if you have not seen the kikkoman thing in my media section, for f*ck's sake, go look!

| ranted by gish || 4/11/2003 08:08:00 PM || |

10.4.03

i made these dolls today:

they are kind of what i'd look like if i was cute. i actually wear similar outfits to #s 2 and 4. so, since i don't have a decent pic to put up, these will have to do for now.

| ranted by gish || 4/10/2003 09:53:00 PM || |

(current song: never let me down again -- depeche mode)

i keep thinking about going to the ministry concert in may, and i can't wait. ^_^ hopefully, we can get some people to come along. ryan might. but i don't think any of our other friends like ministry. even though it's one of the best bands to exist ever. may is also anniversary time. i love spring!

| ranted by gish || 4/10/2003 05:14:00 PM || |

(current song: halloween remix -- ministry)

*survey grabbed from ragingbutterfly*

1. What kind of mattress do you have on your bed?
full

2. Which side of the bed do you sleep on?
right

3. Do you have to have covers (blankets and/or sheets) at all costs, no matter the weather?
yes

4. Sleep nekkid or no?
nope (what if i die in my sleep??)

5. What's under your bed?
i don't want to know

6. What's on top of your refrigerator?
pasta, chips, tins, junk

7. Name five things in your refrigerator?
moldy food in tupperware, skim milk, low fat cheese, sour mix, bread

8. Name five things in your freezer?
ice, popsicles, piece of my wedding cake (that's it, i think)

9. Name five things under your kitchen sink?
cleaning gloves, tool box, detergent, cleaning products, junk

10. Name five things around your computer?
at home, i forget, but here: binders, stapler, bedford handbook, lamp, printer

11. What did you have for dinner last night?
turkey sausage and tater tots

12. What's your favorite meal of the day?
dinner

13. Do you eat breakfast? What did you have today?
nope

14. What beverages do you usually have in a typical day?
water, juice, green tea, and occasionally soda

15. White bread or wheat bread?
wheat

16. What's your favorite kind (potato/tortilla/corn) and flavor of chip?
doritos

17. Wash dishes by hand or in the dishwasher? What detergent do you use?
dishwasher, cascade complete lemon

18. How often do you eat out compared to eating in?
depends

19. What is the weirdest thing you've ever eaten?
chewing tobacco (i was little and i did eat it)

20. What toothpaste do you use?
colgate something

21. Do you use mouthwash?
nope

22. What gum/breath mints/breath spray do you use?
none

23. What TV shows do you always try to watch?
cartoons and britcoms

24. What's your favorite TV show and why?
any cartoon or britcom, coz they're mind candy

25. What was your favorite TV show as a child?
transformers

26. You've just won a complete collection of movies starring
one actor - what actor would you pick?
toshiro mifune

27. What was the last movie you saw in a theater?
two towers

28. What was the last video or DVD that you bought?
robotech invid invasion collection

29. What movie could you watch over and over again and not get sick of?
pulp fiction

30. What section of a bookstore would I find you in?
languages/travel guides or world religion

31. What's the best gift you've ever received?
my bear

32. What's the worst?
now that's just mean. besides, i like getting gifts so much, i don't care what it is. ^_^

33. As far as holiday shopping goes, do you buy throughout the year or do it last-minute?
the week before christmas

34. What's your favorite time of day?
dusk

35. What's your least favorite time of day?
morning

36. Are you a morning person or a night owl?
night owl

37. If you had an entire worry- and obligation-free day, what would you do with it?
er, that's really every day for me...

38. Tell us something about you that would surprise us?
i might actually enjoy playing with a bratz doll

39. If you (and your S.O.) were cool with it, what five celebrities (at the most) would it be 'ok' for you to have a fling with?
dolph lundgren, alain jourgensen, sean o'haire, robert smith, and elvira (that might belong in the above question)

40. What outrageous thing do you wish you had the nerve to do?
pierce my lip

41. What was your biggest accomplishment this year?
getting married

42. What was your biggest disappointment this year?
my job at the comic store

43. What was your first job?
grandy's

44. What was your first car?
1988 chrysler lebaron (kind of)

45. How old were you when you had your first kiss?
12

46. How old were you the first time you had sex?
15

47. What's the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?
chris' prom night was the most romantic thing in my life, ever

48. What's the most romantic thing you've ever done for someone else?
heh heh um...

49. What was your first concert?
ministry

50. What cologne or perfume do you wear?
ck one

51. What cologne or perfume do you like best on the opposite sex?
don't know...

52. What one smell can you not stomach?
vomit

53. What smell do you like that others might consider weird?
rainy dirt smell

54. What do you have your browser start page set to?
www.carvedangel.blogspot.com

56. Favorite search engine?
google

57. When did you first get online?
1994

58. Ever broken any bones?
no

59. Ever had stitches?
no

60. What are the stories behind some of your [physical] scars?
i am unscarred

61. Hey, baby, what's your sign?
leo

62. What would be your dream vacation?
to see the world

63. Where is "home" for you? Is it where you are living now, or somewhere else(ie: Mom & Dad's house, particular state/city)?
anywhere chris is (neko, too. ^_~)

64. What makes it home for you? People? Things?
chris and neko

65. Where is the furthest you've been from home, miles-wise?
somewhere in wyoming, i think

66. What's your favorite animal?
kitty

67. What pets have you had in your lifetime?
cats, fish, hamsters, frogs, lizards, turtles

68. Is there any specific pet that you've wanted?
ferret or snake

69. What are you allergic to?
penecillin, pollen, dust, mold

70. What's your favorite thing to do outside?
look for cover

71. If you could eat dinner with and "get to know" one famous person (living or dead), who would you choose?
william burroughs

72. Has the death of a famous person ever had an effect on you? Who was it and how did you feel?
owen hart. i was devestated.

73. What are the first things that you do in the morning to start your day?
kiss bear goodbye, play with neko, goof around online

74. What are the last things that you do at night before going to bed?
feed fish, take meds, turn on alarm clock and white noise thingy

75. What daily routine have you recently added to your day?
walking with chris after work

76. What routine do you wish you could get rid of?
worrying

77. What's the one thing that makes you feel like something is missing if you don't do it some point within your day?
talk to chris

78. Do you live in a house, an apartment or a condo?
condo

79. Does anyone else live with you?
chris and neko

80. How many times have you moved in your life?
10ish (soon to be 11)

82. What was the first CD you ever purchased?
don't remember

83. What is your favorite kind of writing pen?
purple pilot pen

84. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
lemon or any kind of cheesecake

85. What are your plans for this weekend?
go home to my bear, and have dinner with his (our) dad

| ranted by gish || 4/10/2003 04:25:00 PM || |

insane link of the day:

| ranted by gish || 4/10/2003 01:01:00 PM || |

(current song: eyes-radio-lies -- orgy)

well, i managed to sleep til noon again... i think it's because there is no (natural) light in my bedroom. maybe this would explain my angst when i lived here. nah. ^_~ but, on the plus side, i won't have to wait long for julie to get here. she'll be at school til 10 tonight, but she comes home for lunch.

i feel so badly about last night. mum got really mad at us (julie spilled code red on the floor, and we missed some), but instead of staying around and sticking it out, julie and i went to perkins for about an hour. when i got back, after 12, of course mum and dad were in bed. i don't get to see them much, and the whole thing just kind of sucked. and i missed the first 10 minutes of trigun. but i didn't like the idea of julie driving around by herself that late... also, some bitch at perkins really pissed me off. i've been using chris' credit card for a few months now, with no problem. i did get my id checked once, but that's okay, coz i have his last name. well, they wouldn't take my fucking credit card for a cheap appetizer. even after i showed them my id. yes, i stole a fucking credit card, that has the same last name as mine on it (miracles!), so i can buy goddamn chicken strips with it. i mean, really, folks. if that thing was stollen, i would've been at best buy. i would not have been using it at perkins. i think the bitch was just fucking with me coz of my hair. coz then she took julie's card without a second glance. um, she could've stolen it from a woman couldn't she? but she doesn't look like a punk, so people never fuck with her. (except horny black bus guys, but that's a story for another time. and i'm not racist or anything, either, btw. they are all black guys.)

that's all i want to talk about for now.

| ranted by gish || 4/10/2003 12:24:00 PM || |

9.4.03

(current song: hit the floor -- linkin park)

a certain rude bear has posted on my blog and guestmap. this bear is my husband, so i do not take (too much) offense.

i was watching the news, and the iraquis are celebrating everywhere. i am truly happy for those who managed to survive our invasion. though i still feel there was a way to do this with less casualties and posturing, i am happy that those poor people are finally free. let's hope it's not "new boss, same as the old boss." remember, it was the us that set the taliban up as the new leaders of afghanistan... despite popular belief of many americans, we are not god. afghanistan was only one example of mistakes we've made on others' behalf. i hope we don't continue to make these same mistakes in the middle east and elsewhere.

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 07:32:00 PM || |

(current song: the drowning man -- the cure)

um, stupid blogger erased my last post. for no reason. and i don't really feel like re-writing it. nyah.

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 05:43:00 PM || |

not much to report yet. got up at 9, so i hope i can function today. i'm going to the mall to get the security tag removed from my shirt, then we're going to tempforce, then to the dentist. i'm glad i got batteries for my gameboy yesterday, coz i'm going to need them today. pokemon! ^_^

that's all for now.

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 10:19:00 AM || |

my main personality type:

As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.

INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.

INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.

But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.

Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.

INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.

In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.

The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 03:09:00 AM || |

okay, i just have to say that "nobody's listening" by linkin park absolutely rules. hahn-san suki desu!!

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 01:46:00 AM || |

(current song: 4-d cha (cha-cha-delic) -- senor coconut y su conjunto)

i can't seem to sleep. probably coz i got up so late. i added a couple of bands to my radio station. today, i was talking to julie about when chris and i started dating. which made me think of the stuff we used to listen to. and, i also added our song, "a kiss to build a dream on" by ol' satchmo. one of these days, i may write our story here... it was rather interesting, i think. as far as that stuff goes.

but i notice dumbbear won't comment on much of anything, or sign my guestmap. he's not a very good blog guest.

i've been reading foundation, and it's pretty good. i'll prolly be up all night reading it. i just wanted to hear some old songs for no apparent reason. specifically urge overkill. i rated one album in particular, so what does it play? something i never heard of. :P stupid launchcast. i pick tons of songs, and it keeps playing the same ones. still, it's better than most radio.

well, i'm obviously going to just keep bitching aimlessly if i stay on here.

| ranted by gish || 4/09/2003 01:41:00 AM || |

8.4.03

i went to the mall again with julie, which was fun.

anyway, i got a cute skirt, and a hello kitty shirt. cho kawaii!! but the dummy at the store didn't remove the activation thingy, so now i can't wear the shirt til i take it back. sigh.

i'm still kind of busy, but i'll write more when i have time.

| ranted by gish || 4/08/2003 07:02:00 PM || |

(current song: heroin a.d. -- die warzau)

i just woke up. it's 12:30, and i literally just rolled out of bed. why on earth did i sleep so long??? there's no clock in my bedroom, and each time i woke up, i felt like i was still tired, so i just went back to sleep. now, of course, i feel gross. julie should be home any time now, though. we're going out again today.

well, that's all my muddled brain can come up with at the moment...

| ranted by gish || 4/08/2003 12:31:00 PM || |

7.4.03

well, i just tried waxing for the first time. first (and only) damn strip gets about two hairs, and leaves a lovely trail of red and purple spots. oh yeah, that's real attractive... i'm never doing that again. ;_; hurt like hell, too.

anyway, i'm off to help julie with her script, even though i feel like crap and my voice is shot. i've been so sick today... anyway, enough whining, i'm off.

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 05:02:00 PM || |

ugh, i feel really sick. my stomach hasn't been this upset in some time. :P but i'll try to be pleasant nonetheless. just hope i feel better soon coz i'm supposed to be going out...

julie and i just finished watching jonah, the veggie tales movie. it was cute, but jonah was a jerk.

i just realized my blog is very biblical today, which is weird considering how little i usually have to do with it. legos and veggie tales are cool, though. ^_^

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 11:37:00 AM || |

(current song: do ya think i'm sexy? -- revolting cocks)

i can't believe how incredibly bored i am. as soon as this song is over i'm gonna go find something to do... i wuv this band.

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 09:19:00 AM || |

great, blogger's going nuts again. may have to use pitas again for a while...

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 08:54:00 AM || |

the bible, in lego form

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 08:01:00 AM || |

Your clan is a dysfunctional one. That is because you are a Malkavian. Something is poisonous about this clan's blood that drives all those embraced to madness. However, in this madness, you tend to have great insight. Unfortunately, people just take it as senseless ramblings. In every family there is an insane one. You're it.

What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To?

sweeeet. ^_^ i liked this vampire quiz, because it wasn't completely obvious that if you picked an answer, that was the clan you'd be. and i ended up a malkie. huzzah! if you like vampire, take this quiz.

| ranted by gish || 4/07/2003 07:27:00 AM || |

6.4.03

well, the evening is over quickly. julie fell asleep about 10 minutes into the movie. we bought a bunch of food that i won't be able to eat now, since i'm supposed to be starting my stupid diet tomorrow... and i'm having a bad "attack" which probably won't be over for another hour or so. whee. i'm not tired enough to sleep, which means i get to lie in bed in agony for a while, trying to concentrate on "foundation" which is a hard enough book as it is. but i definitely don't want to spend any more time on the computer...

| ranted by gish || 4/06/2003 11:07:00 PM || |

bear, maybe tomorrow we can do yahoo chat or something? love you!!

anyway, i'm having a good day. i went shopping with dad, and julie and i are watching movies tonight. yayyyy! that's all for now.

oh yeah, check out the hot angel on my quiz journal. lol

| ranted by gish || 4/06/2003 09:03:00 PM || |

yet another new background up. ^_^

| ranted by gish || 4/06/2003 12:01:00 PM || |

mum figured out my headache problem. i have cluster headaches. this is a relief, but it also sucks, because if they keep up, i may have to take medication for them. and i already am on too many things... but at least it's not a tumor. ^_^; still, when i have an "attack" it really hurts.

i don't know what i'm doing yet today. probably going out with mum. julie and i have been talking like mad, and it's fun. i watched K-PAX last night, and it was good. i love kevin spacey but my mum and sister seem to hate him. oh well, it wasn't a waste of two hours anyway.

and, of course, i still miss my bear. ;_;

| ranted by gish || 4/06/2003 11:57:00 AM || |